Is there any hope?

recently, busy for my clinical attachment + finding guarantor for sponsorship...
what i can say.... i'm tired....
my timetable is full and i still  need to arrange my time to do 4 case studies...
meeting ppl who are willing to be my guarantor...
i understand your feelings, your stress, your worries...
some more i'm a stranger to you...
what if i breached the contract, you have the responsibility for me...
today is my 2nd attempts and i'm still looking around...
it's not i'm having financial problem or what... i think it's an opportunity lo...
i can get my monthly allowance and in the mean time i can enjoy my study...
why dont i accept this offer?
I know there are so many ppl out there are supporting me...
i'm appreciate it....they're really wanted to help me...
but they didnt meet the criteria... Let it be, if it's GOD will...
Initially i'm losing hope, but after some sisters come to approached me...
they encouraged me not to give up... thank you aunts...
or should i call them mummy?

*Aunt Patxxxxx, thank you for spent your time to talk with me even
though at the end you cant be the guarantor, it's okay...
i understand your difficulties...

*Pastor & Pastor's Wife, both of you're so nice!!!
i shocked that you willing to help me...
you dont even know me!?!? but you still want to be my guarantor...
because of the criteria, you both also cant guarantor me...
but thank you very much for helping me !!!
it's mean a lots!!! i appreciated it deep from my heart !!!
never forget it in my life...

grace time 25th of June...2 weeks++ more ~~
dont give up...
it's easy to say but when come to face it...
i need more Faith to walk through all these...
i believe it'll make me more self-discipline + learning how to manage my Stress...
it's just the time matter...whether it's sooner or later...
okay its 11pm....time for case study...Fighting!!!
ROck n ROLL

to my Dear, sorry for making you worry....
thank you for listened to me....to let me vent out my feelings...
i love you very very much!!!
you always give me support when i need...
even though, every things that you told me
doesnt work to calm me down initially...
but it do let me feel that someone is there care about me...
I'll will pull myself together again!!!
Dont worry...i know you heartache too...

♥ Love you ♥ 

Determination is "ON"

today, I wore my new shirt and  realised that it's the time to shake off the belly!!!
coz no matter how deep I whole my breath, It still there?!?!
HAha...every times and everyday I hold my breath...
TIRED of breathing..HAHAHA!!!
what can I say...It became my habits :(
So that, it's look flat and smaller...
Now~ I want it be REAL...
Wanted to be pretty & beauty is woman's instinct, so do I?
Okay, this coming weeks I gotta work out more
still eat as usual but just going to say:
bye bye, my favourite snacks "Pocky", Chocolate!!! ice-cream :(

MY determination keep moving!!!
start to count now~
I want to look like this in 2 months later...
I can DO IT!!!!!!