recently, busy for my clinical attachment + finding guarantor for sponsorship...
what i can say.... i'm tired....
my timetable is full and i still need to arrange my time to do 4 case studies...
meeting ppl who are willing to be my guarantor...
i understand your feelings, your stress, your worries...
some more i'm a stranger to you...
what if i breached the contract, you have the responsibility for me...
today is my 2nd attempts and i'm still looking around...
it's not i'm having financial problem or what... i think it's an opportunity lo...
i can get my monthly allowance and in the mean time i can enjoy my study...
why dont i accept this offer?
I know there are so many ppl out there are supporting me...
i'm appreciate it....they're really wanted to help me...
but they didnt meet the criteria... Let it be, if it's GOD will...
Initially i'm losing hope, but after some sisters come to approached me...
they encouraged me not to give up... thank you aunts...
or should i call them mummy?
*Aunt Patxxxxx, thank you for spent your time to talk with me even
though at the end you cant be the guarantor, it's okay...
i understand your difficulties...
*Pastor & Pastor's Wife, both of you're so nice!!!
i shocked that you willing to help me...
you dont even know me!?!? but you still want to be my guarantor...
because of the criteria, you both also cant guarantor me...
but thank you very much for helping me !!!
it's mean a lots!!! i appreciated it deep from my heart !!!
never forget it in my life...
grace time 25th of June...2 weeks++ more ~~
dont give up...
it's easy to say but when come to face it...
i need more Faith to walk through all these...
i believe it'll make me more self-discipline + learning how to manage my Stress...
it's just the time matter...whether it's sooner or later...
okay its 11pm....time for case study...Fighting!!!
ROck n ROLL
to my Dear, sorry for making you worry....
thank you for listened to me....to let me vent out my feelings...
i love you very very much!!!
you always give me support when i need...
even though, every things that you told me
doesnt work to calm me down initially...
but it do let me feel that someone is there care about me...
I'll will pull myself together again!!!
Dont worry...i know you heartache too...
Monday, June 7, 2010
Is there any hope?
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Determination is "ON"
today, I wore my new shirt and realised that it's the time to shake off the belly!!!
coz no matter how deep I whole my breath, It still there?!?!
HAha...every times and everyday I hold my breath...
TIRED of breathing..HAHAHA!!!
what can I say...It became my habits :(
So that, it's look flat and smaller...
Now~ I want it be REAL...
Wanted to be pretty & beauty is woman's instinct, so do I?
Okay, this coming weeks I gotta work out more
still eat as usual but just going to say:
bye bye, my favourite snacks "Pocky", Chocolate!!! ice-cream :(
MY determination keep moving!!!
start to count now~
I want to look like this in 2 months later...
I can DO IT!!!!!!
Monday, May 31, 2010
Asia Conference 2010
Finally, the Asia Conference 2010 had come to The End yesterday!!!
although I'm very tired but I Learnt plus Experienced waking up so early, queueing for entry the main Hall 8...some ppl are more crazy than us...I don't know whether they stay overnight there or not?? Really can see their heart, the love to GOD!!! Praise the Lord!!!
Pastor Kong Hee, thank you for this Conference & all the International Pastors...especially, Pastor Reinhard Bonke has recorded 55 Million decisions for Jesus Christ...HOLY SPIRIT is one of the most important that i have learnt from him...Pastor Steve Munsey & Pastor Phil Pringle!!! =( I missed out!!! my clinical attachment~ arh!!!
However, Pastor YonggiCho, you're great too...even though, I wasn't fully understand what you preached but I can see the ministry you had built for GOD!!! It will be great if you preach in Korean..HAHA =)
and today...my LOVE is going back to my hometown ~the land below the wind~
I will be very very MISS YOU!!! I know you're more SAD than me
but we'll meet up again on JULY dear!!!
hold on and work hard together....
I LOVE YOU!!! muacks....
Friday, May 28, 2010
Ward 55
HOHOHO!!! today is my last day of Paediatrics posting !!!
I'm SUPER HAppY...hehe...
i know it's not the end yet but the feeling is GREAT~
hmm....this posting really learnt a lot & see a lot...
especially the parents arh...
=) they're STRONG !!! gain a lot of insight & affected from them~~
every children are like DIAMONDs...
from day to night, the parents always by their side
the child no appetite, mummy/daddy also no appetite + heartache =(
when they are anxious & worry, they keep pressing the call bell !!!
annoyed lorh !!! and too exaggerated larh !!!
but when it's come to you as a parents, the way we think sure different
I really really SALUTE those parents with Congenital Defect child
If this kind of thing really happen to me,
I don't know how am I going to face this child?
may be the child don't even have the chance to come to this world,
I already say No & Reject them ='(
Honestly, I'll choose to ABORT it... definitely...=(
"TROUBLESOME" only, it automatically come into my mind....
I know it's immoral and against my belief...
may be when I'm in this situation...
things will be different
So, I'm very lucky & blessed...coz I'm perfectly perfect...
and
mummy & daddy thank you for all these year,
your tender, love and care who every child are needed...
I have it all !!! BOTH of you are my SUPERMAN ♥ my No.1 !!!
"Mom, you are my model of being a good mother & counsellor"
HAHA !!! Besides, this posting make me wanna to have my own child too :p
come come PREGNANT~~ come come BABY~~;p
I'm start to imagine how my baby going to look like:
Big eyes, inherited my dimples =) fair skin, like his daddy's nose....
excited!!! you must think that I'm crazy...
but it feels good to have your own little family
♥sweet♥ but if the baby cry, it's not fun at all =(
but yet I still love them....
one thing that I realized~this posting make me love kids more !!!
a really good experience & exposure =)
2 more weeks to go!!! everyone!
my must take care and don't get sick horh...
we still need to FIGHT with the little kiddo there and their
mecornium's bomb!!!
careful...
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ haha...my future 3 kiddos.... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
try this at www.MorphThing.com !!!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Toilet Marathon !!!
Ohh God....i have being in-and-out of toilet 8 times...
Diarrhoea~ Diarrhoea~~FART!!! not silent killer >_<
i think it's a process of recovering though, Annoying lah!!
Feeling: Discomfort, Churning of stomach like menstrual's cramp ~.~
hmm....obviously, i lost weight....2kg? dont know...but my face sharpen a bit
are there any methods to diet, other than fall sick....medicine...eww~~
HAHAHA!!! stop talking rubbish!!!
I declare, tomorrow i will recover!!! 神是拉法!! My Healer!!! AMEN!!!
GOOD NIGHT!!! GOD BLESS YOU & ME!!!
*Mr.K, don't worry =) your baby very strong* wait you~~
Saturday, May 22, 2010
HOHOHO =)
I'm so PROUD of myself!!! PROUD!!! HAHAHA!!!
Finally, i have time to update my blog and edited my own blog...by myself eh!!! =)
Recently, i'm busy of my attachment at KKH... and get sick also, Gastroenteritis (GE)
but feeling much more better...*active mode* now...
no worry =) my immune system very STRONG!!!
haha....i'm must be crazy~ time to go to sleep~~ Good Night =)
